Meh. I shouldnt be feeling like this. I hate insecurities that really shouldnt even be there in general.
This is not going to be easy to do :( but it has too happen. Stay positive. Be strong. This is better for the both of us in the long run. Its just going to be tough adjusting to whats ahead of me but I know I can do it. I have to.
Letting go is never easy. Especially in my situation. After everything we’ve been through together. I dont want you out of my life forever but for this to really sink in and take effect it has to be cold turkey for a while. How long? I dont know but when the time is right ill be there because you still mean a lot to me. I hope you know that. I dont want us to hate each other but there’s no telling how things will turn out. Only time will tell. I just know this has to happen. For us to grow as people and adults. I cant be there holding your hand all the time whenever you mess up. I cant be your crutch anymore. You have so much potential. I believe in you so much but you dont believe in yourself and by doing this I think you’ll finally see how amazing you truly are. You dont need me. If we are meant to be things will find their way back but right now a change has to happen. It just has to. I see no other options.
Trust me when I say this wont be easy. I just hope you can take this in stride just like im hoping I can. I hope this doesnt bring us down individually in the end. things just kept getting worse and worse. I really had hope this last run but what happened recently is where I cross the line. I refuse to let this get any worse. For both our sakes.
Just know just because we arent together doesnt your place in my heart wont be there. I meant it when I said no one could ever take your spot. You’re my first love and also my first real break up. I just hope deep down both us will be able to handle it. I pray we do.
My mind is all over the place right now but one thing is clear. This has to happen. I know that now.
Haven’t posted in forever so heres a sexy pic of my mk2 and my friends mk3 both vr6’s ;)
Kinda lame when someone tells a story about you but they leave key parts out to make you look like the complete douche. When in reality it’s your own damn fault. Honesty is the best policy. Grow up. You’re supposed to be better than this high school crap.
probably the best times of my life. sadly :P